After the birth of our son I had the pleasure to enjoy maternity leave. I was not sure how I was going to handle going back to work, but overall I knew reality was coming whether I liked it or not. I was nervous, scared, and upset because I knew I had to go back in order to help support our family. I wanted to spend my time at home watching our son grow. I wasn’t certain what going back to work was going to be like. I knew I was going to miss being around him all day, and I wasn’t sure if daycare was going to be a good fit for him. Would they hold him the way I do? Or give him the attention I know he craves, or rub his back when he falls asleep? I had to trust someone with our son and a part of that scared me.
It wasn’t until I dropped him off to daycare for the first day that I realized this was it…I had to trust someone. When he came home from his first day of daycare he was exhausted and for the first time I was able to get some work done. It’s been a while since I had the chance to write, listen to podcast, or do anything pertaining to my personal goals. Turns out daycare has been a great asset to our life. The next day our son smiled when he realized he was back at the familiar place. It put my heart at ease knowing he was happy and content with his new surroundings. I was able to get back into writing, I even got up early last week to go to the gym. For the first time in three months I felt like I had the opportunity to get back to me. That’s when I realized in order to move towards a goal we have to let some things go and put some things into place in order to put our best foot forward.