Loneliness takes over a person’s mind and absorbs any ounce of happiness in their life.
When you are left with negative thoughts it can lead to a dangerous place. It’s only a matter of time before that ticking time bomb explodes. Sadly, a lot of people keep their thoughts to themselves. I mean I get it, you don’t know who to trust, and most of all you don’t want your business out there for someone else to gossip about. I have been there and to be honest with you I still struggle with that from time to time.
2010-2011 was a rough year for me. I was hurt from a previous relationship and to top it off, I was alone. I didn’t have the energy to do anything. I only went to work because I knew that was something I had to do in order to pay my bills. However, during that time conversations were meaningless and I viewed my life the same way. My friends were getting married and I all had were my feelings and my apartment. Those days drove me insane! I went to work, did my duties, and rushed home to stayed in bed. I barely ate nor did I care if I had anything to eat.
When I relocated to another state I didn’t realize the importance of family. I was always around them and it’s true you don’t miss something until its gone. Well not quite gone but you catch the drift. I was 3 1/2 hours away from home and a phone call was not always good enough. One time I managed to go home but I had to drive back to Maryland Christmas night because I worked the next day. The weather was horrible and I refused to travel alone on a holiday again. With that being said holidays were a drag and the following Christmas I didn’t do anything. Despite living in a new town and being distant with family and friends I had to find happiness within myself, but during that time I didn’t know how.